The 'Weekly Experience' features a devotees' experience chosen from our repository of translated experiences. This experience will feature across all the categories on Angel Grove Studio and 'My Mother' digital magazine.
In 1984, my marriage took place. Although I gave birth to two children, both of them died. After that, I had miscarriages. The doctors said that, I wouldn't become a mother. Hearing this, I was very sad. When I was in the hospital, a Sakthi from the Adi Parasakthi Mandram at Ooti came to see me. I told him about my condition. This Sakthi, later on, took me to that Mandram and gave me Amma's kumkum. He requested me to attend the worship regularly. I obeyed his advice.
My neighbours began to make fun of me. They wondered and exclaimed why the Om Sakthi, whom I was worshipping, did not bless me with a child. They also asked me why I was going to the Mandram yet. Dear Sakthis, I didn't give much attention to their talk. I bore them patiently. The faith in Amma did not decrease in my mind at all. I attended the Mandram regularly and served the Mother in whatever way I could.
I wore the Sakthimalai and carried Irumudi to the Temple, for the fourth time. On the fiftieth day after that, I conceived! I do not know what sin I might have done. I do not know who had cursed me in this manner. I suffered yet another abortion! All my relatives and all my in-laws said that, I would never become a mother.
Meanwhile, there was a function in our neighbourhood, where they were naming their new-born baby. They invited me, too. As they were kind enough to invite me, I went there. All the other ladies were giving the child a little honey. The mother of this baby called me near her, too. I also gave the baby honey and wished him good luck. Suddenly, her husband became angry. In front of all the people who were there, he shouted at this mother, asking her why she invited me, when she knew that I was childless! I came back home and cried a lot.
I stood in front of Amma's photo and promised Her that I would never ask Her to bless me with a child. I also promised Amma that I would never give up doing Her service. At night, I went to bed. Early in the morning, I saw a dream. I was doing pooja to the Divine Mother, at our Mandram. Our Amma slowly came out of the photo. Then, Amma was seen in the form of our Mandram President. I saw a pot filled with milk. There was an apple, too. Slowly, She took the apple and placed it on my lap. Without saying anything, She walked backwards. She entered the photo just as She came out of it – what a wonderful dream!
Within a few days, I knew that I was in the family way! I wondered whether I would get this child alive. I really felt that Amma, who came in my dream and placed the apple on my lap, would certainly bless me to become a mother. Amma didn't disappoint me. I became the mother of a baby boy! I have given him Adigalaar Amma's name itself. In order to express my gratitude to Amma, I carry Irumudi to the Temple every year.